Blooming into Insanity

what lasts a lifetime

posted by Crayzta @ 12:13 AM 0 Comments

Dearest Chichaley and Crazy,
I have finally gained access to our insanatorium blog after many months of frustrated ramblings.
Indeed, our high school days are reduced to nothing but memories residing in the hazy corners of the years mingling together in the splendid cacophony of adolescence yet the bonds that we have created have stayed with us, bridging continental gaps and reaching through the years- we still are here, the immutable trio, the crazy ones. Although long moments of silence stand where our perfervid conversations used to be as we are caught up in our own spheres, the unquestionable knot of friendship still binds the three of us together.
Through birthdays and holidays, random lunch dates and the like we've still managed to momentarily catch one another like the vague edges of de ja vu before we break off once more. But that doesn't change the memories mingled into our years.
Cha I miss you terribly. Things aren't quite the same without your bubbly presence. I do wish you are going to enjoy Christmas in Hong Kong,all the wonderful bargains and christmas specials are ringing in my ears, I'm sure you're going to have a lot of fun shopping!
Crazy, I am very happy that you've moved on from the frightening whirlpool that had sucked you in for the past three years (you know what I'm talking about :) ) we're always there for you no matter what- if you need a tub of ice cream or what, rest assured that we will be ringing your doorbell in 30 minutes- I'm just a shout away :)

-HRH

posted by Crayzta @ 9:56 PM 0 Comments

Friendships and Memories

Dear and Crazy.

How are the both of you? I don't talk to both of you that often, even now that Chaley is in HK and we used to have the time to talk to each other. We're both busy in our own little worlds, whether or not its for class or for leisure. As for Sheree and I, we see each other sometimes in school, that's it.

I sincerely miss seeing the both of you in class every day. Remember all the crazy stuff we did back in HS. The games we'd play to pass the time during boring class hours, or the pictures we'd take when no one was looking? The "parties" that we'd occasionally attend whenever the three of us could find the time to do so. It's amazing really how much we've taken that for granted. Remembering those times, suddenly makes me remember my cellphone and sim card. Those times in HS, were things we took for granted. I don't really mind losing the phone, it has some sentimental value, but losing the sim card was really painful. All those memories, those 9 years that came with it, it's all gone.

Missing the both of you is something I've taken for granted as well. I hope the both of you are doing fine. I'm trying to be happier now. I'm doing my best to be optimistic, and unscathed my emo-ness(which is proving to tbe quite difficult). Being single, and not "it's complicated" has been quite the experience for me. Makes me worry about less things though, and doesn't complicate my life and my status as much. Truly, I can say that I'm single and attached to no one. I can be more selfish now, instead of sticking to a guy who truly cannot seem to appreciate all that I've done for him.

It's really sad how friendships go though. Friends become best friends, only to become a mere shadow of that friendship. We're not enemies, but this "friendship" is barely a semblance of our old friendship. But you know, sometimes, there truly are friendships worth severing. And friends, who aren't really friends at all.

Love you both and missing you dearly.

posted by Crayzta @ 2:32 AM 0 Comments